Thrystan

Nu pot muri in aceasta clipa , sub aceasta cortina
Prea putine lacrimi se vor prelinge in urma-mi
De voi fi jelit sau poate alungat si uitat in pripa
Doar spune-mi acum si de nu viata curma-mi

Nu are rost sa semeni far’ de-a secera iubirea
La fel prieteni ce ii faci sa vada lipsa
Cand nu mai sunt la fel e tulbure simtirea
Plecat va sunt, de negasit , acoperit d-eclipsa

Testand revelatii pe adevarati a se vrea prea amici
Prefacut de a fi un drogat, decazut dintre sfinti
Sunt crud, dar savurez fiecare din spuse sau critici
Va vad infrarosu,ultra haini ,violenti si strang din dinti

Citesc totul din urma cand cortina mea cade
Probabil facut-am mult rau in a mea cercetare
Intunericul se lasa, si toti suntem umbre fade
Am dorit doar adevarul in prietenie ,nu venerare

Stiu…e greu din nemurire sa musti, sa te arzi
Sa-mprumuti si sa uiti , un alb gand, o simtire
Devenind cel cu stigma , ultimul dintre barzi
Detestand plecaciuni veninoase fara privire

Te-nchizi in tine , incepi sa urasti realitatea
Tot incercand si crezand ca-s prieteni
Dar nu e amicul acela ce-mi cere
In fata de furt a fi reci , poate tepeni

Cortina de sange, cortina de aur,nu merit
Nu am azur nici in vitza ,nici in privire
Aici in agonie de prieteni sunt ferit
Caci fiece zbor cu amici e strivire…

1

i sold my soul to death
i couldn’t stand my breath
i cut my flesh too much
i couldn’t stand the touch

and this is only a monster
the demon that you hate
and i am not your answer
and death’s my final fate

today i can’t repent
my god is ignoring me
i try to cry, i can’t
my god, my lord is she…

i’m trapped before tomorrow
in bleeding and despair
i’m letting out the sorrow
broke doll, with no repair

2

i’m searching for myself
‘n the mirror and in you
i’ve given all the help
to people, old and new

i want a space… my own
a cross inside your soul
my synapses were blown
dramatic white black hole

and nothing hurts me now
when you are all but near
there’s nothing here to wow
a “me” that’s filled with fear

i’ve given all i’ve got
and still there’s more to give
i’ve given up on me
or else i couldn’t live

3

an angel stole my sight
approaching my heart beat
i’ve lost my sight and kite
i’ve dragged my feet…

i’ve been walking for years
without a destination
i’ve been drowning in tears
and she’s my mortivation

we’ve seeded a tree of life
as my death was blooming
we have polished the knife
i’m tired of resuming…

a tear in the corner of my eye
a tear for each time i want to die
a smile for each time i wanted to live
i’ve never smiled, please believe

4

i want to be like you
so pure and alive
i’m rotten inside, it’s true
only my core can thrive

i open my eyes each day
to see the same jail cell
i hate the price we pay
to lay a life in hell

and i’m glad that i’m crying tonight
glad that my soul felt a bite
a chunk of it’s missing for you
i am the same, only blue

i am a piece of dirt
where you’ve seeded a flower
i want to be hurt
forever, for an hour

5

i’ve had my share of life
i want my share of death
i’ve finished tears and cries
my soul has wet the bed

there’s nothing here for me
unless you count the pain
that sets me free each day
i’ve tears for your rain

the lies we’re told as youths
’bout flowers and sweet princesses
are tragically the truth
we’re junkies, soulless messes

the lie i told today
was me saying “i love you”
and my lips became grey
i’m talking to myself, it’s true

6

i am all alone in dirt
fragile and so dead
nothing left to hurt

i am all i know
all i know to hurt
i am my own man
just a piece of dirt

i have no more tears
so i’m crying blood
i gathered all the fears
inside a bitter flood

and this is my own world
sadistic, sick and sour
it should  be left untold
but this is my last hour

Für den Engel liebe ich

It’s you a glitter in my tears
The switch to on me now and ever
A sweet aroma of my fears
I’ll not lose track of you, no…. never

Can’t help it to be metallic and wild
No reason to explode near you
I’ve got no control, can’t be yours so mild
No kiss never made me love true

My nervous is falling for she
And all of the systems are crashing
A soul is invented in me
The power, not curent now dashing

This is my sick garment of machine
Inside lies a beast with noble soul
This story has been told before
Love-fueled you’re my narcotic whole

I will embrace you in the lights
Mechanic lover in the night
I’d be just God to toy with you
Make you mechanic in delights…