Thrystan

1

i sold my soul to death
i couldn’t stand my breath
i cut my flesh too much
i couldn’t stand the touch

and this is only a monster
the demon that you hate
and i am not your answer
and death’s my final fate

today i can’t repent
my god is ignoring me
i try to cry, i can’t
my god, my lord is she…

i’m trapped before tomorrow
in bleeding and despair
i’m letting out the sorrow
broke doll, with no repair

2

i’m searching for myself
‘n the mirror and in you
i’ve given all the help
to people, old and new

i want a space… my own
a cross inside your soul
my synapses were blown
dramatic white black hole

and nothing hurts me now
when you are all but near
there’s nothing here to wow
a “me” that’s filled with fear

i’ve given all i’ve got
and still there’s more to give
i’ve given up on me
or else i couldn’t live

3

an angel stole my sight
approaching my heart beat
i’ve lost my sight and kite
i’ve dragged my feet…

i’ve been walking for years
without a destination
i’ve been drowning in tears
and she’s my mortivation

we’ve seeded a tree of life
as my death was blooming
we have polished the knife
i’m tired of resuming…

a tear in the corner of my eye
a tear for each time i want to die
a smile for each time i wanted to live
i’ve never smiled, please believe

4

i want to be like you
so pure and alive
i’m rotten inside, it’s true
only my core can thrive

i open my eyes each day
to see the same jail cell
i hate the price we pay
to lay a life in hell

and i’m glad that i’m crying tonight
glad that my soul felt a bite
a chunk of it’s missing for you
i am the same, only blue

i am a piece of dirt
where you’ve seeded a flower
i want to be hurt
forever, for an hour

5

i’ve had my share of life
i want my share of death
i’ve finished tears and cries
my soul has wet the bed

there’s nothing here for me
unless you count the pain
that sets me free each day
i’ve tears for your rain

the lies we’re told as youths
’bout flowers and sweet princesses
are tragically the truth
we’re junkies, soulless messes

the lie i told today
was me saying “i love you”
and my lips became grey
i’m talking to myself, it’s true

6

i am all alone in dirt
fragile and so dead
nothing left to hurt

i am all i know
all i know to hurt
i am my own man
just a piece of dirt

i have no more tears
so i’m crying blood
i gathered all the fears
inside a bitter flood

and this is my own world
sadistic, sick and sour
it should  be left untold
but this is my last hour

Für den Engel liebe ich

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